To be happy, or not?

My mum told me in the car after work that another Air Mail from Britain was sent to the house for me, it's apparently from the university. I received an offer letter from Nottingham UK a couple of weeks ago for the Masters program I applied for, so why is there another envelope for me? I applied to only 2 universities so far and I was informed last week that my other application has been declined. My mum said its probably the course prospectus or something...

So I came home and opened the envelope to see this



It's an offer letter from Southampton for the program I applied for. Apparently the university made a mistake when they informed me that my application was declined... so in actual fact, I got it!



Other than Nottingham and Southampton, i'm definitely trying my luck with better universities when their application dates are opened. Even so, I already cannot afford the tuition fees, how on earth am I going to afford a better university?

Oh Lord... IF ONLY I was born a princess, my family would be rich enough to afford any education I desire. IF ONLY I went to UK earlier on to pursue my degree, I would be eligible for local fees which is at least 10,000 pounds cheaper. IF ONLY I studied harder, I would probably have scholarship offers in line. IF ONLY...

then I realised that I should stop thinking that way because IF ONLYs are not real.

I seriously need to work harder and pray harder. God help me.